A while back I read an interesting post on Thought Catalog about being an alcoholic which really resonated with me, not because I’m an alcoholic, but because of something the writer said at the end. I can’t find the post now but a quick google search led me to the same post on another blog. Anyway at the end they wrote, “And if I’ve learned anything about self development it’s that I have a choice. I am not going to wake up tomorrow and not be an alcoholic…This is going to be hard. This is going to be fucking hard. I am going to struggle. But I am also going to win”
I printed it out and put it on the collage I made on my journal except I replaced “alcoholic” with a blank so that I can fill in whatever it is I’m struggling with. I may be going somewhere super cool tonight and this might seem unbelievably exciting, but I’m moving to the other side of the world where I don’t really know anyone and moving in with a family I’ve never met. So I keep saying to myself, “This is going to be hard. This is going to be fucking hard. I am going to struggle. But I am also going to win”
In other news, I’m leaving in less than three hours. I’m still not finished packing. I’ve changed my outfit at least four times now. I feel like I’m getting ready for a first date… or something.
I also haven’t showered but then again, what’s new?